I had a hard day. It was the firs time I felt like maybe I should give up acting, and leave this school. Well, school year is almost over, so it’s not that bad. :P But I still doesn’t feel myself that well. I’m going out tonight with classmates after whatching a play in the Szkéné Theatre. So, it looks like I’m going to have a great night at least. And I just finished whatching the movie Winter Passing. It is one of my favorite movies. Made me cry a few times, but I recommend it to everyone, cause it is really really great! :)

here I am again. long time no see, huh? well, that’s because I don’t have time for so many things, and the only reason is, hmmm… ME?! yeah, definitely. I need to do something… I need to keep everything in my hand or… or I simply just need to buy a calendar. yeah, that would make a wonderful first step for me to be ready with my tasks in time. the weather is on my side, from this point of view, cause without sunrise,I don’t feel like go out for a walk, or even leave the house. but I have good music and 8 Shakespeare comedies/tragedies I have to read till thursday. I’ve already read Hamlet and Richard III. The next one will be King Lear. Thursday is almost here, but I’m gonna make it! I’M GONNA MAKE IT!

my best firend and i were talking about what would be the first thing to do if we won the lottery… of course to go to a She & Him concert! so today we went to buy a lottery ticket… you never know :P

sunday we went back to the city by car. well, actually the car broke down halfway so we ended up on the train again. eight bags, the two of us and the crowded train. let’s hust find two more free places! i hate annoying people on the train, and now i needed to be an annoying woman, trying not to hit everyone with bag number three on my left, cause bag number two also needs place on the right, not to talk about bag number one. so… finding myself in a funny situation again.

back to the city, but an hour til the dormitory opens. what to do? let’s find a place where people won’t freak out from two strangers with the face that tells ’ i am going to kill the next person i meet ’ and we still had the many bags i mentioned before. mcdonald’s. great! hate the food there so lets’ drink a cup of tee an hour long.

finally in the dormitory. ready to unpack everythink, but why is that i can’t unlock my cupboard. aha! this is mom’s key, and the one i need is at home now. getting a little angry. but it’s all right, youtube is there for everything. and believe it or not i found many videos about how to unlock something with a hair pin, aaand how to make the hair pin ready for that. of course it was just a waste of time, except that instead getting more agrier i had fun!

this day later, i was thinking about what a day it was, i mean i did everything i could to see the positive sites of everything, but now i can see all the negative things that happened to me, and not just today. i almost started to self-pity myself, when i met the girl from room 203 and started a conversation with her. she asked me about how my christmas was. i answered and asked the same question. than i got the answer of my question ‘why is so much sadness in her eyes?’. her mom died three days before christmas. i was like… i freezed. i just couldn’t move my lips. finally i told her how sorry i am. and that’s it. conversation ended.

i spent the rest of the day thinking about that poor girl and how stupid i was there at the moment. what is the right thing to say and do in a stuation like this? i mean exept that i told her i’m sorry… was it enough? you know what, i think it was. cause i ment it and i was there listening to her. hope she thinks the same.